Reversal

28 July 2018 Saturday 9:11am

This is hard!

What is hard, dear one?

This keeping my tweets to a minimum when there’s so many popping in my head dying to be tweeted! They’re like popcorn popping in a pot with a tight lid on it!

Then why are you controlling them?

I don’t know. Maybe I just want to know what it feels like to suppress my soul from expressing itself.

You’ve taken time-offs from being online before.

Not like this. Those time-offs before were times when I did not really have any desire to “put anything out there” for everyone to see. This feels different somehow. Instead of tweeting my first thoughts, I’ve been keeping notes of them in my Note app. Another weird thing is that I seem to find myself thinking twice, or even thrice, and even multiple times about that one tweet that I want to tweet for the day. I’ll be asking myself: Is it relevant? What does it mean? Is it important? Does it make sense? Etc, etc.

And before?

And before what?

How did it feel before when you gave yourself freedom to tweet anything that pops into your head?

Oh. Well, I didn’t even have to think twice. A thought would always feel like an OMG moment. You know like, a thought would pop into my head while I’m cooking, or brushing my teeth, or in the shower, then I’ve had to pick up my phone immediately and tweet right there and then. That flash of thought would feel like it makes so much sense. It would usually feel like it was true in every sense of the word. For my scheduled tweets, the words would still seem very true at the moment that it popped up. But since my tweets are scheduled, I would have time to think about it. Usually, I’ll type it the day before or the night before. But then there’ll be lots of times when something else will pop up. That’s when I’ll change the scheduled tweet. Many times! It’s so weird. I didn’t use to overthink a thought before. What is happening to me?!

Reversal.

Huh?

Look up the meaning, please.

Okay. There are three which seem relevant. Reversal means: One—“acting in a manner opposite or contrary to that which is usual”. Two—“to alter to the opposite in character or tendency; change completely”. And three—“to turn in the opposite order: to reverse the process of evolution”.

How do each of those meanings seem relevant to your truth?

Okay. For the first one—overthinking a first thought is acting in a manner opposite or contrary to that which is my usual self. Before, I didn’t have to know or understand the meaning of my thoughts before sending them online. So that’s true. The second meaning of “reversal” says, “to alter to the opposite in character or tendency; change completely”. Okay, I agree. That’s somewhat true.

Somewhat? Why isn’t the second meaning one hundred percent true for you?

If it was hundred percent true, there’ll be zero tweets from me. At the moment, I’m still putting some of myself online. In fact, my blog posts are counted as my truth “out there” too, right?

Yes. How about the third meaning? Is it relevant to what you are experiencing?

The third meaning of “reversal” says, “to turn in the opposite order: to reverse the process of evolution”. I’m not sure about this one. Am I reversing the process of my soul evolution?

When it comes to the evolution of the soul, there is no such thing, my dear.

Maybe you mean the evolution of the physical. Because when you’re dead, you’re dead. Unless you become a zombie. Haha…Anyway—when it comes to the soul, the soul simply is. The soul knows everything. So how can the soul evolve if the soul already knows everything and it simply is?

Precisely. The soul can neither evolve forward nor backward. Or reversed, as what we are discussing here. The soul is exactly where it wishes to be—and it is everywhere, now and forever.

So the third meaning of reversal is not relevant to what I am experiencing at the moment? So the reason why I’m suppressing the desire of my soul is because of “reversal”. I still don’t get it. Why am I experiencing reversal?

Empathy, my dear. In order for you to fulfil your purpose in this world, your soul will desire to experience everything. Suppression of that desire is an aspect of everything. Your soul wish to empathise with others who are experiencing suppression of the desire of the soul. Although, your experience at the moment is at a much milder level as compared to those who are experiencing it fully. What do you think would have happened if you did not put your truth “out there” over 5 years ago? As in, you suppressed your soul’s desire?

Really? It’s only been 5 years? 5 years since I began my soul journey? It feels like it’s been forever!

Putting into perspective what all of you have accomplished within that 5 years in moving towards your highest evolution, my dear, I consider it a miracle.

I’m sure all messengers (active and non-active) would be glad to hear that. Thank you.

No, thank you. So, my dear, I ask again—What do you think would have happened if you did not put your truth “out there” over 5 years ago?

I have no idea.

So it is of no use contemplating or discussing what would have happened?

Yup, no use at all. It’ll be a complete waste of time. Speaking of time—can I tweet whatever and whenever again?

You can do whatever you wish, my dear. You are free.

Yay.

How To Fertilise Your Garden

26 June 2018 Tuesday 7:19am

I weird thought just came to me while I was washing up at the sink this morning.

Don’t you always?

Yeah. Sometimes the most mundane tasks are the most epiphany-triggering. Why is that?

You are having epiphanies all the time, my dear. It is only when you believe that a thought is an epiphany that a thought becomes an epiphany. Otherwise, you’ll simply treat it as a random thought. The awareness that the voice in your head is God’s voice also influences the way you consider your thoughts. To some, God’s voice is of the highest value. They will ponder and try to understand the meaning of a certain thought that strikes them as revelations, or what you call “epiphany.” And sometimes, they would wish to share it with others. That is usually how your holy scriptures are created. “Holy scriptures” is a somewhat outdated term at this moment in time, don’t you think? Because many of you are now aware that everything and everyone is holy. Now, on the other hand, there are some who still believe that some of your thoughts are from the devil. Do you think you would give them value if you consider these thoughts as evil?

I don’t think so. In fact, I’ll not even consider such thoughts at all. But there’s no such thing as the devil. It’s a myth that humans created in order to…to…Um, why did we create the myth that is the devil?

We created the myth of the devil because a long, long time ago it was too unbelievable to believe that humans are God in human form. Another reason would be that God desires to know Godself—who is love. In order for God to know God as love, there must exist that which is not love. God wish to experience Itself. God wish to experience love. So we invented the illusion of fear, which humans humanised into what you now call the devil. Love is God, fear is the devil. It is in your world of the relative that God is now able to experience Godself because there is now the illusion that we created that which we call “evil.” It is in your world of the relative that God experience love. God experience love through humans—through all of you. But in order to experience love, you must also experience fear.

I understand. Question: You used the words “we created the myth” and “we invented the illusion of fear.” But then you also used the words “in your world.” Isn’t God in the world of the relative too?

Of course. You are all my spirit children. My spirit is in all of you. And you are ALL my children. That is how God exists in your world. We use the term “children” because your physical forms are mere babes at this moment in time. You have no idea yet of what your physical forms are capable of. Your physical form now is only a tiny seed in the spectrum of evolution in your little universe. Your mind will be blown away if you knew to what extent your physical form is capable of evolving into. If you will only take good care of yourself. And your earth, of course.

We’re trying, okay? We’re trying very hard. So the earth is actually only a tiny seed in a little universe? My God! What else is out there for us?

The truth, dear one. And at this moment in time, you are yet incapable of understanding the immensity of—

Stop. Just now, you called us mere children and our universe is “little.” And now you’re saying we are “incapable.” I am feeling really small right now.

I apologise. I am merely making you aware of your power to create anything. This world has so much potential in terms of—

Argh! Can we please change the subject?

Of course. So what was your epiphany all about?

Oh…Oh yeah. It’s about desire. I suddenly realised that desire may not be from within. I mean, it isn’t triggered inside out. It’s actually triggered outside in.

So what do you think triggered that thought?

It’s my tweet about desire being a fertiliser. Plants are still able to grow without us adding fertiliser or vitamins or whatever will boost its growth. Or is it a mistake to use the fertiliser allegory?

In order for an allegory to be better understood, it’s better to describe or use an illustration or an imaginary situation. What would you use?

How about an apple?

Alright. Go ahead.

There’s a table in an empty room. Wait…How about this—I am in the Nothingness Room. I’ve just had lunch. Then someone comes in and places a table in the Nothingness Room. And then that someone places a bright, red apple on that table. So now there’s this bright, red and juicy looking apple right in front of me. But I’m not really hungry because I just had lunch, remember? But that apple sure looks delicious. That sentence just spelled D-E-S-I-R-E. I feel desire for that delicious looking apple. When a while ago, I didn’t have such desire because that apple wasn’t there. My desire only got triggered upon seeing that delicious apple. That’s desire from outside in, isn’t it?

How do you know it’s delicious?

Huh? Does it matter? We’re talking about “desire” here—not taste.

It does matter. So how will you know if that apple is delicious?

By picking it up and taking a bite, that’s how. You’re weird.

What if it’s not delicious? What if it’s sour? Will you still have the desire to finish eating that whole awful-tasting-teeth-numbing-sour apple?

I suppose not. What’s your point?

I’ll explain in a while. So your desire suddenly turned to derision upon realising that what you thought was desirable is actually not so desirable after all?

Derision is too harsh. Let’s just say I got turned off. I can’t stand eating sour food. I think I’ve got more sweet areas in my tongue than sour. So anyway, what’s your point?

In a while. Let’s say, someone comes in again and places something else on that table in your Nothingness Room. It’s something you know will be delicious even if you don’t pick it up and take a bite.

Ooh, I know what that is—chocolate! M&M’s!

M&M’s it is. Note that you haven’t taken a bite of either one of the two—the delicious looking apple and the M&M’s. So where is your desire headed now?

That’s not fair. One is good for my health, the other is not.

We’re not talking about health—we’re talking about desire. You can be shown the most unhealthy food in the world and yet you can still have the unholiest of holiest desire for it. It is your other desire to have a healthy body that is the contender. I’ll put it this way—you just had a very healthy lunch. Now, you get to pick dessert.

Okay. That’s fair. And you already know my answer.

M&M’s it is.

Yum. So which is it: Is desire from inside out? Or is desire from outside in?

Which came first: The chicken or the egg?

Oh man…I don’t even know why I bother.

Let’s put it this way—And my point as well, is that—fertiliser (which you used as metaphor for “acting upon your desires”) is optional when it comes to maintaining a garden. On the other hand, a healthy and beautiful garden is regularly maintained and given lots of TLC and vitamins or fertiliser. Not unlike the way you maintain your body, mind and spirit. To love is to act. Otherwise, you are merely breathing in order to be alive.

Isn’t just being alive in this world good enough?

There’s being alive and then there’s just being alive and yet knowing you have a bigger purpose in this world.

Like I said—I don’t even know why I bother.

I know why. Because you have empathy.

No, I don’t.

Yes, you do.

No, I don’t.

Suit yourself.

Alright! Yes, I do.

The Followers & The Challengers

12 May 2018 Saturday 3:55pm

“Dear Neale…I have been wondering about the role of personality in the mechanics of the mind and system of the soul. I observe that some people have personalities that seem to make it easier for them to operate successfully in our culture — i.e. follow rules and religious doctrine while others are challenging rules and not accepting of structures that govern and make the rules. Can you discuss the role of personality?”

This was on Neale’s website. Neale wrote an explanation but it’s sort of complicated for my kind of intellect.

What is your kind of intellect?

Um…I’m simple? I’m of a simple intellect.

No, dear. You wouldn’t have come as far as you have with just a simple intellect. The soul is simple but complex.

But I just said that Neale’s reply to the query was complicated. And now you’re saying my intellect is simple but complex. If I was also complex then I would have understood what Neale was talking about.

I said the soul is simple and complex. The soul knows no rules. I’m sure you’ll agree with me when I say that rules make life complicated. Therefore the soul is simple because the soul is free. The soul is also complex because the soul knows everything. The knowing of everything is immense, to say the least. And isn’t the soul life? Isn’t life complex? Therefore the soul is also complex. Now, let me ask you – do you always know exactly what your soul is up to?

No.

Why do you think that is so?

At first, I think I know what I’m doing because I’m thinking of the conscious purpose of what I’m doing while I’m doing whatever it is I’m doing. But later on, I’ll realise that what I was doing had a different purpose altogether. It was a subconscious or even superconscious purpose – the purpose of the soul. Does that make sense?

Read it again – what you just wrote. Does it make sense to you?

Yeah, it makes sense.

You have just created a simple explanation of something complex such as what the soul is up to. The soul is me. The soul is capable of anything. In your world, the body, mind and soul have to act as one in order for you to experience your life agenda. It is these acts which are the physical evidence or components of your personality. Your personality is actually what others observe of you. When others see you act out kindness, they will say you have a kind personality. When they see you act out gratitude, they will say you are thankful or polite. When they see that you’re a forgiving person, they will say you have a generous or tolerant personality. When they see you act out violence, they will say you have a violent personality.

Woah! That was quite a leap there. From kindness to gratitude to forgiving to generous, then bam – violent! C’mon, you gotta ease me into it, God. Maybe put in anger or resentment, or piqued in there somewhere before we jump into violence.

My apologies. But you must agree, dear one, that violence in your world does show up violently out of nowhere sometimes.

I agree. Anyway, we haven’t really discussed the real query – what’s the role of one’s personality in connection with one’s mind and soul? And why are there personalities who prefer to practice religious beliefs & doctrines as compared to those that challenge them?

Let me quote the exact words used because they are key in explaining exactly what the topic is about – which is about personality. The exact words are “some people have personalities that seem to make it easier for them to operate successfully in your culture — i.e. follow rules and religious doctrine while others are challenging rules and not accepting of structures that govern and make the rules.” Do you know of any personalities who are examples of the first group of people mentioned? Let’s call them the Easy Followers.

Um…

Never mind. It doesn’t matter. How about the other group of people? Let’s call them Challengers.

Yeah. Neale and his friends, I guess.

Are you one of Neale’s friends?

I like to think so.

He does too. So do you call yourself one of The Challengers?

Like yeah.

Have you always had a personality that is a trait of being a challenger?

Nope. I’ve only just recently become a challenger. Like about 5 years ago. That was when I realised my life purpose. Before that, I would have called myself an Easy Follower because at that time I was operating by following rules and religious doctrines.

You forgot the word “successfully” in there somewhere – operating successfully by following rules.

I don’t think so.

Fair enough. So to get back to the query: What role does personality play in being Easy Followers or in being Challengers?

I’m not sure. But I think one can already deduce by what we call each group. Which I think is not very nice of us to do so.

Do what, dear?

You know, call people names by their personalities.

What do you think the names mean?

One name may mean that the personality of the person prefers to follow rules because it’s easier – easy life. While the other is not so easy – a challenging life.

Don’t you consider yourself one of the Challengers?

Yes.

Is your life challenging at the moment?

At this very moment, yes! This conversation we’re having is really tough! I’m afraid of offending someone.

You, afraid?

Always.

But tough?

I try.

Would you consider the role of your personality as being afraid and being tough when it concerns the “mechanics of the mind” and the “system of the soul”?

I suppose so. Being afraid is of the mind. Being tough is of the soul. Afraid and tough – that’s an odd personality combination, though.

Not really. Love and fear go hand in hand in your world.

For now.

Yes, dear. For now.