The Missing Shoes – A Dream

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(From my chronicles – I still remember this dream like it was yesterday…)

18 August 2013 Sunday

I had a dream this morning.

I was lost in a building – trying to find my way out. I was wearing a dark business suit – tailored shirt, jacket and trousers. I was walking around when I finally came to some glass panels with sliding doors. I went through and found myself looking down some stairs. There was a chain blocking it. I stepped over the chain and was about to take a step when I hesitated. It looked so steep! I was afraid I’d miss a step and fall.

I looked around and noticed a couple of escalators on the far side. I thought, That’ll be a lot easier and not so scary. I stepped back over the chain and went back through the sliding glass doors.

I felt something on my head. I flicked it away with my hand and whatever it was fell to the floor. I glanced at it and saw that it was the chain from the steps. It got caught in my hair.

As I came to the glass entrance to the escalators, I noticed the escalators weren’t moving – Oh no, they’re out of order.

I looked around and noticed a lady behind me. I was near the entrance doors of a theatre hall. She was the usher. She signaled to me – pointing to the sensors to make the escalator move. There was a green button at the side. But she came forward instead and touched it, signaling for me to step forward. I did and as the escalator started moving down I sensed the glass doors closing when she went back in.

I looked back and saw the usher signalling to me again – I left my shoes behind! I looked down – I was barefoot. Never mind, I’ll go back. I turned as soon as I reached the bottom and rode the other escalator going back up. But when I reached the top, it was a totally different place.

This time there were two ladies nearby who looked like they were ushers as well. I asked them for directions to the entrance of the theatre hall that I came from. They said I have to go through their theatre halls to get back there. But if I didn’t want to be noticed by the cinema patrons, they said I should go through the one that was empty. I’m not afraid of people – so I said, “It’s okay, I don’t mind. And the movie hasn’t started anyway.”

As I went through the doors, I noticed it wasn’t a theatre at all but a classroom where some children were preparing for lessons.

As I walked towards the far corner, looking for the exit, one of the little girls called out to me, “You’re not supposed to be here! ” I said, “It’s okay, I’m just passing through.” I found the exit door and left.

Instead of finding myself at the place where I left my shoes, I found myself outside on the ground floor of the building. It was raining and I was still barefoot. There were a lot of people walking around. The place looked like it was a business area.

I thought I better take a bus back to where I came from to retrieve my shoes. The ride was a lot quicker than I thought and when I alighted I noticed I was the only passenger. The bus brought me to a hotel in a shopping mall. I decided to buy a new pair of shoes.

I found a shop that sold shoes that seemed reasonably priced. I took a pair of sandals from those that were displayed – checking the size. It was a size 5. I needed a 5 and a half or a 6.

I requested the sizes I wanted to try from the young sales lady. I thought, How weird – she should be at the beach in that bikini she was wearing. She brought me a pair that fit and when I asked her how much it was – I thought the price was way too expensive for my budget. I told her I only had a few dollars in my bag.

When I took out my wallet, I was surprised to find it contained different currencies from all over the world. The sales lady remarked, “Oh yes, we have plenty of those scam cases at this hotel.” Another lady customer agreed with her.

I felt disheartened. And I was still barefoot.

Then I woke up.

The Little Girl, the Boat and the Sun

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(From my chronicles)

9 June 2013 Sunday 8:35pm

The Story of the Little Girl, the Boat and the Sun

There was once a boat who asked everyone to come on board.

The boat said proudly, “I will protect you from the storms and the strong winds, my dear ones. Come on board, everyone!” The boat bobbed up and down on the water as one by one everyone got on board.

Then a little girl asked as she sat down, “Where are we going, Boat?”

The boat replied, “To look for the sun. The clouds have taken away the sun. Let’s look for the sun.”

The little girl looks at the water, a little puzzled by what she sees. She points down and asks, “What is that?”

The boat answers, “Why, that’s the water, dear.”

“No, I mean, what’s that in the water?”

“You mean the reflection?”

The little girl nodded, “Yes.”

“Why, that’s you!” The boat replied.

The little girl’s face lit up, “Wow, she’s beautiful! Her eyes seem to shine like the sun!” Suddenly, the little girl straightened up and shouted, “Boat! I found the sun!”

“Where?” The boat asked, looking around.

“It’s in my eyes! The sun is in my eyes!” The little girl replied, “The sun is in me!” She stood up and said, “I have to go, Boat. I have already found the sun. I hope you find the sun too, Boat.”

And she turned to the others on board the boat and wished that each of them will find their sun.

So she disembarked, walked on the water and stepped ashore.

She turned and shouted, “Don’t worry, Boat! Don’t worry, everyone! I’ll come back and help you find your sun!”

 

Ugliness & Beauty

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22 September 2017 Friday

9:56am

Ugliness is the only guardian angel a woman has.
~ Yiddish Proverb

How can ugliness be guarding a woman? That is so weird.

What is ugliness to you?

My feet. Nowadays, I find my feet really ugly. They’re looking really old. They’re wrinkled, full of veins and discoloured. And sometimes even painful.

Alright. Even though you think your feet are ugly, do they still serve their purpose?

Yes, of course.

Do they guard you against being a handicap and not able to walk?

Like I said, yes.

Then that is exactly what that proverb means. Your feet, which you find ugly, are your guardian angels, which are guarding you from not being able to walk.

I guess so. But men have feet too, you know.

Yes, they do. But do they find their feet ugly as much as women do?

No, I don’t think so. Most beauty products are targeted at women. There’s one product that you apply and keep on for a few hours, and then wait for a couple of days—the skin will start drying up and you can peel off the outer layer, revealing the layer below which looks as soft as baby’s skin. I’m thinking of ordering.

What’s stopping you?

Fear. Fear that it’s all just hype. I’m thinking, killing off the upper layer of your skin is really drastic. My feet may even have a bad reaction to it. You know, like an allergic reaction.

But you won’t know that until you try.

True. There are a lot of things I want to change in the way I look. Not just my feet. But they aren’t my priorities right now.

What are your priorities, dear one?

This. This is my priority. These words. This conversation with you and what I’m putting out there into the world.

Why is that your priority? Why is putting out these words into the world your priority?

It’s my purpose. I’m a messenger for The New World. It’s my job.

A non-paying job.

I get paid plenty! I have peace in my soul. That’s more than I can ask for.

Glad to hear it.

Anyway. So why is ugliness the only guardian angel a woman has?…Wait…I think I got it.

What have you got?

The explanation—Women’s beauty, including inner beauty which is love, can only exist when ugliness exists. Without ugliness, also known as fear, how will we see the beauty of women in this world? What I can’t explain is, why only women? Don’t men have beauty too? Don’t men have love too that must be guarded?

Of course, my dear. But with the state of the world right now, is men’s beauty showing up?

Most of the time, no. That’s why we still have wars.