Reversal

28 July 2018 Saturday 9:11am

This is hard!

What is hard, dear one?

This keeping my tweets to a minimum when there’s so many popping in my head dying to be tweeted! They’re like popcorn popping in a pot with a tight lid on it!

Then why are you controlling them?

I don’t know. Maybe I just want to know what it feels like to suppress my soul from expressing itself.

You’ve taken time-offs from being online before.

Not like this. Those time-offs before were times when I did not really have any desire to “put anything out there” for everyone to see. This feels different somehow. Instead of tweeting my first thoughts, I’ve been keeping notes of them in my Note app. Another weird thing is that I seem to find myself thinking twice, or even thrice, and even multiple times about that one tweet that I want to tweet for the day. I’ll be asking myself: Is it relevant? What does it mean? Is it important? Does it make sense? Etc, etc.

And before?

And before what?

How did it feel before when you gave yourself freedom to tweet anything that pops into your head?

Oh. Well, I didn’t even have to think twice. A thought would always feel like an OMG moment. You know like, a thought would pop into my head while I’m cooking, or brushing my teeth, or in the shower, then I’ve had to pick up my phone immediately and tweet right there and then. That flash of thought would feel like it makes so much sense. It would usually feel like it was true in every sense of the word. For my scheduled tweets, the words would still seem very true at the moment that it popped up. But since my tweets are scheduled, I would have time to think about it. Usually, I’ll type it the day before or the night before. But then there’ll be lots of times when something else will pop up. That’s when I’ll change the scheduled tweet. Many times! It’s so weird. I didn’t use to overthink a thought before. What is happening to me?!

Reversal.

Huh?

Look up the meaning, please.

Okay. There are three which seem relevant. Reversal means: One—“acting in a manner opposite or contrary to that which is usual”. Two—“to alter to the opposite in character or tendency; change completely”. And three—“to turn in the opposite order: to reverse the process of evolution”.

How do each of those meanings seem relevant to your truth?

Okay. For the first one—overthinking a first thought is acting in a manner opposite or contrary to that which is my usual self. Before, I didn’t have to know or understand the meaning of my thoughts before sending them online. So that’s true. The second meaning of “reversal” says, “to alter to the opposite in character or tendency; change completely”. Okay, I agree. That’s somewhat true.

Somewhat? Why isn’t the second meaning one hundred percent true for you?

If it was hundred percent true, there’ll be zero tweets from me. At the moment, I’m still putting some of myself online. In fact, my blog posts are counted as my truth “out there” too, right?

Yes. How about the third meaning? Is it relevant to what you are experiencing?

The third meaning of “reversal” says, “to turn in the opposite order: to reverse the process of evolution”. I’m not sure about this one. Am I reversing the process of my soul evolution?

When it comes to the evolution of the soul, there is no such thing, my dear.

Maybe you mean the evolution of the physical. Because when you’re dead, you’re dead. Unless you become a zombie. Haha…Anyway—when it comes to the soul, the soul simply is. The soul knows everything. So how can the soul evolve if the soul already knows everything and it simply is?

Precisely. The soul can neither evolve forward nor backward. Or reversed, as what we are discussing here. The soul is exactly where it wishes to be—and it is everywhere, now and forever.

So the third meaning of reversal is not relevant to what I am experiencing at the moment? So the reason why I’m suppressing the desire of my soul is because of “reversal”. I still don’t get it. Why am I experiencing reversal?

Empathy, my dear. In order for you to fulfil your purpose in this world, your soul will desire to experience everything. Suppression of that desire is an aspect of everything. Your soul wish to empathise with others who are experiencing suppression of the desire of the soul. Although, your experience at the moment is at a much milder level as compared to those who are experiencing it fully. What do you think would have happened if you did not put your truth “out there” over 5 years ago? As in, you suppressed your soul’s desire?

Really? It’s only been 5 years? 5 years since I began my soul journey? It feels like it’s been forever!

Putting into perspective what all of you have accomplished within that 5 years in moving towards your highest evolution, my dear, I consider it a miracle.

I’m sure all messengers (active and non-active) would be glad to hear that. Thank you.

No, thank you. So, my dear, I ask again—What do you think would have happened if you did not put your truth “out there” over 5 years ago?

I have no idea.

So it is of no use contemplating or discussing what would have happened?

Yup, no use at all. It’ll be a complete waste of time. Speaking of time—can I tweet whatever and whenever again?

You can do whatever you wish, my dear. You are free.

Yay.

The Empty Car – A Dream


‪I had to borrow a car even though I didn’t know how to drive. But trying to drive it was exciting! I parked it. 

But when I came back the car was stripped to its shell – there was nothing left but paper stuffings instead of the engine. 

A man came out from a door nearby. While he was washing his hands I asked him if he could help me get home. 

He asked me to sit next to him on a bench nearby, and he said he was actually the owner of the car. And did I notice that I forgot to lock the doors? 

I felt so dismayed and guilty – I started crying and apologising, hugging him and telling him I was very, very sorry. 

The next thing I knew I was running across an open field where some men were watching a pig attacking a dog. 

I ran faster because a white dog began chasing me. It tried to bite my leg but it couldn’t. 

It stopped chasing me when I finally reached the edge of the field. 

The Little Girl, the Boat and the Sun

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(From my chronicles)

9 June 2013 Sunday 8:35pm

The Story of the Little Girl, the Boat and the Sun

There was once a boat who asked everyone to come on board.

The boat said proudly, “I will protect you from the storms and the strong winds, my dear ones. Come on board, everyone!” The boat bobbed up and down on the water as one by one everyone got on board.

Then a little girl asked as she sat down, “Where are we going, Boat?”

The boat replied, “To look for the sun. The clouds have taken away the sun. Let’s look for the sun.”

The little girl looked at the water, a little puzzled by what she sees. She points and asks, “What is that?”

The boat answers, “Why, that’s the water, dear.”

“No, I mean, what’s that in the water?”

“You mean the reflection?”

The little girl nodded, “Yes.”

“Why, that’s you!” The boat replied.

The little girl’s face lit up, “Wow, she’s beautiful! Her eyes seem to shine like the sun!” Suddenly, the little girl straightened up and shouted, “Boat! I found the sun!”

“Where?” The boat asked, looking around.

“It’s in my eyes! The sun is in my eyes!” The little girl replied, “The sun is in me!” She stood up and said, “I have to go, Boat. I have already found the sun. I hope you find the sun too, Boat.”

And she turned to the others on board the boat and wished that each of them will find their sun.

So she disembarked, walked on the water and stepped ashore.

She turned and shouted, “Don’t worry, Boat! Don’t worry, everyone! I’ll come back and help you find your sun!”