Beauty Sleep & Coffee


6 November 2017 Monday


There it is again, God! Another article that says coffee is bad! Why are You sending me these warnings? Am I getting addicted to coffee?

Only you can answer that question, child.

Yeah, you’re right. Alright then. Tomorrow morning, I’ll drink soy milk instead and see how it goes.

The only way to find out whether you have a crutch is to remove the crutch.

That’s a good word for an addiction – a crutch. Yup, maybe I should stop drinking coffee for a while. These days, or rather, these past few nights, I’m finding it hard to fall asleep right away. Even though I’ve only had like 4 hours of sleep. Like now. It’s already after 11 and I’m still awake. Usually by 9:30 I’ll be dozing off while reading. But now, even when I’m lying down, my eyes don’t want to stay shut.

You know very well that sleeping is not only about closing your eyes. It’s about communing with Me. Sleeping is when your body will slow down its vibration, slow down its energy, in order for the soul to be able to take charge and be free of its confines for a few hours. Sleeping is your soul God-ing. Ever hear of dancing freestyle? Well, sleeping is your soul flying freestyle.

Cool! So what happens when the body has trouble sleeping? What happens to the soul?

The soul will struggle to be free, of course. That’s when you think your mind is going crazy thinking all sorts of thoughts. In actual fact, it is your soul persuading your mind to calm down so that your soul can fly free for a few hours. This struggle between the mind and soul is what you believe to be the cause of your sleeplessness in the first place.

Like what’s happening to me now. I started writing this because I can’t sleep. And the cause of my sleeplessness may be the two cups of coffee I had this morning.

Is that your usual? Two cups?

No. I usually just have one cup. This is brewed from ground coffee via our coffeemaker. The other cup was instant.

So you have ground coffee as well as instant coffee at home?

Yup. The ground coffee is supposedly healthier. While the instant is…Well, for an instant cup of coffee – just add to hot water. It’s convenient. The brewed coffee tastes much better though.

So why don’t you have two cups of the better-tasting coffee?

It’ll be too strong for me! The last time I had two cups of brewed coffee one after the other it gave me a buzz all day! I was like a busy bee!

Isn’t that good?

Yes, in a way. But I don’t want to be dependent on coffee to become busy. Or to be able to accomplish anything. That’s why I’m planning to go cold turkey with coffee for a while. Maybe I won’t drink it everyday. Maybe just on the weekends like I use to. Besides, I really need my beauty sleep. And I need lots of it! Haha.

So goodnight then, dear one.

Goodnight…I hope.

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7 November 2017 Tuesday


Goodmorning, God.

So how is it going?

How is what going?

The cold turkey.

Oh. Okay, I guess. I’m writing here and talking to You, which is good. And I have a very strong feeling this is for posting on my blog.

That is entirely up to you. Did you sleep well?

I slept well considering I was up until after 1am and had to get up again at 5. The lack of sleep will usually catch up with me after lunch. I’ll have a power nap then. It’s good to be a lady of leisure. Which I think my ex will not be so happy about. I think he’s sort of hinting I should get a job to help with the kids’ expenses. Maybe I’ll apply at MacDonald’s or something. Haha…Actually, it’s not that funny. I really need to “upgrade” myself if I want to get back into the rat race. Or research about some online business or something.

There you go. It wasn’t the coffee, was it?

Um…What are You talking about?

The future is what is causing your sleeplessness. Which is not uncommon.

But You told me last night it was my soul struggling to be free that was causing those crazy thoughts in my head.

The struggle is your subconscious persuading your conscious mind to calm down. Your soul keeps saying, Everything will be alright. Accept and bless the situation. Do what you can do. Peace comes from having no expectations. While your mind argues, Everything will NOT be alright! What if I am mistaken?! What then? What if this?! What if that?!

That wasn’t what was happening to me last night.

It may have been. The struggle for sleep is a common problem in your world. Most of the time, it is the mind that wins the struggle. Or shall we say, your pharmaceuticals are the winners most of the time because most of you believe that lack of sleep can be relieved with chemicals. There is no chemical that will ever be able to heal the soul. Your lack of sleep is your lack of peace in your soul.

So we’re back to the subject of sleep.

Speaking of which, how did you finally fall asleep?

I continued re-reading Awaken The Species until I felt my eyes go heavy. Oh…and a cup of chamomile tea helped.

Still About Mistakes


4 November 2017 Saturday


My tweet: Once we see ALL relationships (including male/female) as divine is when we free ourselves from hidden agendas in relationships.

The phrase “including male/female” got me scratching my head. Most of us already see male/female relationships as divine. That’s why we have church weddings and wedding ceremonies which we consider sacred or divine. My question is – why didn’t I use the phrase “including same gender relationships” instead? Because those are relationships that are still not wholly acceptable by our different beliefs. Because some of us still do not consider them to be divine or sacred.

Do it.

Huh? Do what?

Use that alternative phrase in your statement and see how it feels.

Okay. “Once we see ALL relationships, including same gender relationships, as divine is when we free ourselves from hidden agendas in relationships.”

So how does that feel?

So, so much better! OMG! I made a mistake, didn’t I?

Yes, you did.

Oh no!

Why are you so disturbed, my child? You’ve made mistakes before, haven’t you?

Yes, of course. I’m only human. But these words are for those who are seeking the truth about life and how to live life. I hope so anyway. As a messenger, I cannot be broadcasting mistakes to everyone! They might believe they are not mistakes. And they might apply it to how they will live their lives and make the same mistakes!

What are we doing now?

We’re having a conversation.

About what?

About mistakes.


Okay, okay. I get it. My mistakes are lessons for others so they will know how to deal with their own mistakes. Because all of us make mistakes. Even messengers.

My child, the more mistakes messengers make the better.

Unfortunately, that is true.

I’m glad you agree. How did that tweet come about anyway?

It’s an observation of another tweet. It’s the one about these young men in Japan who work as Boyfriends-For-Hire, as they call themselves. It was a feature about Tokyo on Channel News Asia. They are hired by women who simply want someone to talk to and maybe even get hugs and cuddles for maybe a couple of hours. And strictly nothing sexual involved. The “boyfriend” even gave a little demonstration with the interviewer of how the session would go. As I watched, I thought, How sweet. How sweet of these young men to do such things. When he was asked why he became a Boyfriend-For-Hire, his reason was that he wanted to help women while also needing a job. But I understand their fees are not cheap.

Have you ever had a relationship with a man simply for friendship?

Yeah, actually. It was when I was still working. Colleagues thought we were an item but we were strictly just friends because we were in the same department. We simply got along quite well. We’ve lost touch, though.

So your mistaken statement is still partly correct, dear one.

How so?

You just said – your colleagues thought you and your male friend were an item even though you were strictly friends.


Well, then. That is also a sort of judgment, is it not? To believe that a man and a woman are having a relationship other than friendship is also judgment. Sometimes, judgment turns into gossip, especially when it is spread around. Then gossip, more often than not, turn into lies. And as you know, lies always create trouble.

But people can’t help it! We’ve been brought up into thinking that as long as a man and a woman are often seen together, they have a “thing” going. Or they’ll end up having a “thing” together. So I guess we’re back to where we started, huh? We’re back to a thing called “mistakes.”

Making assumptions about a relationship without proof is judgment. Judgment that is broadcast turns into gossip. Gossip turn into lies. Lies turn into mistakes. Yes, I suppose you can say we’re back to a thing called “mistakes.”

Yup, we’re back to where we started. So now, where are we going?

Nowhere, my dear. As long as mistakes are not amended, we are going nowhere.


About Deliberate Mistakes


31 October 2017 Tuesday 7:12am

…There was a heck of a thunderstorm during dinner last night. Something tells me it’s the same old story. How in the world can one enjoy one’s sustenance and let it be beneficial for one’s body when only judgements are coming out of one’s mouth? Not to mention spoiling the appetite of those dining with you. Dinner should be about love and pleasantries, yes?

Hate doesn’t choose any particular time and place, my dear.

I don’t think that’s true. What about Las Vegas? “Hate” chose to wait around in a 32nd floor suite of a hotel. Isn’t that choosing a time and place to hate and kill?

You are right. I Am duly corrected.

Wow. That’s rare. God is mistaken. God is admitting a mistake.

If you can make mistakes, so can God. I Am you in flesh and blood.

But it’s deliberate, isn’t it?

What’s deliberate, my dear?

When you said “hate doesn’t choose any particular time and place.” You stated it as a deliberate mistake so we can have something to talk about.

We always have something to talk about. And yes, I stated it as a deliberate mistake. Your soul has an agenda. And that agenda will definitely include mistakes. How else will you evolve to the grandest version you imagine yourself to be? That is why, when it concerns the soul, every mistake you ever made was deliberate. Every mistake you are going to make will be deliberate. That is how you become the best you can be.

Not many people will agree with that.

That is the truth. And no one has to agree with the truth. It is not compulsory. The truth is freedom. How can freedom be compulsory? If someone else’s truth does not resonate with yours, you do not have to agree with it. It is impossible anyway. In the sense that your soul will be vehemently disagreeing while outwardly you are pretending to agree. You are lying to yourself. So it is impossible to agree with someone else’s truth if your soul feels otherwise. You may pretend to agree for the sake of peace. Like your saying goes — peace for a price. Care to explain what it means?

Not really. But I can give you another saying that means exactly the same thing.

Go right ahead.

Betraying yourself in order not to betray another is still betrayal. It is the highest betrayal.


So…The truth that mistakes are deliberate — care to explain what that means?

How about I give you a saying instead?

Go right ahead.

Nothing happens by accident.