About Being A Coward

23 June 2019 Sunday 6:42pm

Just now, walking past a sitting area under the block of flats in my neighbourhood, I happen to glance at a couple of elderly men in wheelchairs and their caregivers. They were probably there just to relax and watch people walking by. But the women did not look like they were relaxing at all. One of them was sitting on the stone bench. She was using a sarong to cover her front because her Tshirt was pulled up at the back. The other woman was standing behind her. She looked like she was inspecting her friend’s back. I noticed reddish welts. And they certainly didn’t look like they were bug bites. It looked like she leaned back against a fence with diagonal metal bars. I only glanced for a couple of seconds but I knew at once they were burn marks. I walked on, pretending not to have noticed. I don’t think they saw me. By then the blood began to pound in my head and my heart beat a little faster. I thought, Shouldn’t I turn back and help her to report the abuse to the authorities or something? But still I walked on. I felt like crying and I felt angry at the same time. Why didn’t I turn back, G?

You tell me, dear one.

I didn’t turn back because…because…I’m a coward!

What is a coward, my dear?

A coward is “a person who lacks courage in facing danger, difficulty, opposition, pain, etc. A timid or easily intimidated person.”

So are you a person who lacks courage in facing danger, difficulty, opposition, pain, etc.? Are you a timid or an easily intimidated person? Be honest with yourself.

No. Otherwise, I wouldn’t be doing this.

Doing what, dear?

Helping women to not be oppressed anymore.

There’s your answer.

But I didn’t turn back! That’s not helping women!

Abuse is rooted in a belief. We are all about helping women change the belief that they deserve less respect than men. And we are also helping men change this belief. A belief is of the soul and mind. You didn’t turn back because your soul knows true change is from the soul. You are already helping that woman by bringing awareness to her particular situation. Because her situation is not uncommon. Will you be posting this online?

Yes, I suppose.

There you go. In order to help one woman, you have to help bring awareness to the problems most women are experiencing.

But what about that abused woman? Who will help her not be abused anymore?

Only she can help herself. And revealing her predicament to another is already one way of doing that. Let us hope they will help each other do the right thing. And you seeing evidence of her abuse is not a happenstance. Everything that happens in your life is never a happenstance. Everything that shows up in your life has a purpose. Your experiences are tools to help you evolve to the grandest and highest version of your spiritual self.

Not helping that woman is certainly not the grandest and highest version of my spiritual self. I’m still feeling guilty that I didn’t turn back to help.

You still can, you know.

I can still what?

Turn back.

I don’t think so. She might not be there anymore.

What if you see her again? Will you ask her about her predicament?

I really don’t know the answer to that. There are so many things to consider.

Like what, my dear?

Like would she be embarrassed if a total stranger confronted her about her back? Maybe they aren’t even burn marks. Then I’ll be the one embarrassed. Or her employer might find out that someone else knows about her predicament and then she might be abused even more.

You do know, my child, that those are just guesswork. Also known as excuses. They are mere speculations. Which means they do not exist.

Also known as fears.

Yes.

Then I am a coward after all.

You may say whatever you say you are, dear one. But what you are doing or not doing is not as important as what you are being. What do you think you are being?

I’m being a coward.

Tell me what is a coward again, please.

A coward is “a person who lacks courage in facing danger, difficulty, opposition, pain, etc. A timid or easily intimidated person.”

Is a coward being fearful or being courageous?

A coward is being fearful.

Are you in fear right now?

Not now, no. But I was when I passed by that abused woman!

Are you very sure she was abused?

No, I’m not one hundred percent sure. Where is this going?

This is going nowhere until you are one hundred percent sure that she was abused.

But the only way to be one hundred percent sure is to walk up to her and ask her to her face!

Then do it.

I don’t want to!

Why not?

Because I’m a coward!

I give up.

God is giving up. That’s laughable.