6 November 2017 Monday
There it is again, God! Another article that says coffee is bad! Why are You sending me these warnings? Am I getting addicted to coffee?
Only you can answer that question, child.
Yeah, you’re right. Alright then. Tomorrow morning, I’ll drink soy milk instead and see how it goes.
The only way to find out whether you have a crutch is to remove the crutch.
That’s a good word for an addiction – a crutch. Yup, maybe I should stop drinking coffee for a while. These days, or rather, these past few nights, I’m finding it hard to fall asleep right away. Even though I’ve only had like 4 hours of sleep. Like now. It’s already after 11 and I’m still awake. Usually by 9:30 I’ll be dozing off while reading. But now, even when I’m lying down, my eyes don’t want to stay shut.
You know very well that sleeping is not only about closing your eyes. It’s about communing with Me. Sleeping is when your body will slow down its vibration, slow down its energy, in order for the soul to be able to take charge and be free of its confines for a few hours. Sleeping is your soul God-ing. Ever hear of dancing freestyle? Well, sleeping is your soul flying freestyle.
Cool! So what happens when the body has trouble sleeping? What happens to the soul?
The soul will struggle to be free, of course. That’s when you think your mind is going crazy thinking all sorts of thoughts. In actual fact, it is your soul persuading your mind to calm down so that your soul can fly free for a few hours. This struggle between the mind and soul is what you believe to be the cause of your sleeplessness in the first place.
Like what’s happening to me now. I started writing this because I can’t sleep. And the cause of my sleeplessness may be the two cups of coffee I had this morning.
Is that your usual? Two cups?
No. I usually just have one cup. This is brewed from ground coffee via our coffeemaker. The other cup was instant.
So you have ground coffee as well as instant coffee at home?
Yup. The ground coffee is supposedly healthier. While the instant is…Well, for an instant cup of coffee – just add to hot water. It’s convenient. The brewed coffee tastes much better though.
So why don’t you have two cups of the better-tasting coffee?
It’ll be too strong for me! The last time I had two cups of brewed coffee one after the other it gave me a buzz all day! I was like a busy bee!
Isn’t that good?
Yes, in a way. But I don’t want to be dependent on coffee to become busy. Or to be able to accomplish anything. That’s why I’m planning to go cold turkey with coffee for a while. Maybe I won’t drink it everyday. Maybe just on the weekends like I use to. Besides, I really need my beauty sleep. And I need lots of it! Haha.
So goodnight then, dear one.
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7 November 2017 Tuesday
So how is it going?
How is what going?
The cold turkey.
Oh. Okay, I guess. I’m writing here and talking to You, which is good. And I have a very strong feeling this is for posting on my blog.
That is entirely up to you. Did you sleep well?
I slept well considering I was up until after 1am and had to get up again at 5. The lack of sleep will usually catch up with me after lunch. I’ll have a power nap then. It’s good to be a lady of leisure, haha. Which I think my ex will not be so happy about. I think he’s sort of hinting I should get a job to help with the kids’ expenses. Maybe I’ll apply at MacDonald’s or something. Haha…Actually, it’s not that funny. I really need to “upgrade” myself if I want to get back into the rat race. Or research about some online business or something.
There you go. It wasn’t the coffee, was it?
Um…What are You talking about?
The future is what is causing your sleeplessness. Which is not uncommon.
But You told me last night it was my soul struggling to be free that was causing those crazy thoughts in my head.
The struggle is your subconscious persuading your conscious mind to calm down. Your soul keeps saying, Everything will be alright. Accept and bless the situation. Do what you can do. Peace comes from having no expectations. While your mind argues, Everything will NOT be alright! What if I am mistaken?! What then? What if this?! What if that?!
That wasn’t what was happening to me last night.
It may have been. The “struggle for sleep” is a common problem in your world. Most of the time, it is the mind that wins the struggle. Or shall we say, your pharmaceuticals are the winners most of the time because most of you believe that lack of sleep can be relieved with chemicals. There is no chemical that will ever be able to heal the soul. Your lack of sleep is your lack of peace in your soul.
So we’re back to the subject of sleep.
Speaking of which, how did you finally fall asleep?
I continued re-reading Awaken The Species until I felt my eyes go heavy. Oh…and a cup of chamomile tea helped.